Wednesday, April 9, 2008

I'm still here

B is now deployed. Being alone is so much harder than I expected. I got to talk with him for the first time on Monday night. He sounded good, but could only talk for a few minutes. He has also been able to email me. The emails really help him feel like he is still in the loop back here. Plus they make me feel less isolated from him – so if I forget to ask him / tell him something on the phone I don’t have to wait a week until we talk.

He asked me to take pictures of my belly along the way. I took one last week and was pretty surprised that an actual bump was visible – not really in my work clothes yet, but in just a tank top you can tell something is there (even if it does resemble a beer gut).

I did not want to post until I heard from him. In all honesty I didn’t want to do much of anything, but one of the girls I work with is on her honeymoon so I have been slammed back-filling her as well as doing my job. I was irritated at first but it really was helpful to be busy during the majority of the day.

I think the morning sickness is gone – knock on wood – and I am getting my energy back. I have an appointment on Friday. I can’t believe it has been 4 weeks since I last saw our little one. And I won’t even get a peak this time, unless we have another heartbeat-hearing issue due to the ‘ol tilted uterus. As long as I hear that strong heartbeat I think I will be good (but who am I kidding, I would love an ultrasound!).

Sorry I have been silent for awhile, although I promise I have been keeping up with all of your blogs. Also I have been tagged by k@ourboxofrain and a loooong time ago by Alison (so sorry!). I promise to get to those next week when my co-worker returns from her honeymoon and my workload returns to normal!


Anonymous said...

I'm glad you're still here and things with the little one are going well! I can't even imagine what it's like to not have B there. You are strong, and this too will pass, but that doesn't mean it's fun. :( I'll keep you (and B!) in my thoughts and prayers.

Rebecca said...

It's gotta be rough to be alone...I give you a lot of credit. Glad to hear you're starting to feel better...that's when it started to happen for me too. Good luck with your appointment and can't wait to hear how things go!

Jen said...

It's good to hear from you! I'm sorry you have to go through this alone though. Even when your incredibly happy about a pregnancy, it is difficult not to have your hubby around to enjoy it with.

Good to hear about the belly. It's sounding pretty similar to mine. Nothing that would make somebody ask if you were pregnant, but definitely beginning to be noticeable.

Courtney said...

Sending best wishes for a great appointment tomorrow. I hope that while B is away you are able to communicate often, and that his time away passes very quickly.

Duck said...

It must be so hard to be alone and have your husband deployed, i couldn't imagine how scary that must be.
It's good to hear from you, we get worried when there are no posts for a long time.