Sunday, March 23, 2008


I can't believe it actually snowed here on Easter. The snow didn't stick but it was pretty strange to see. I wish it would warm up - I have Spring Fever big time!

I am officially 13 weeks now! It feels so good to be done with the first trimester. Now if only I could stop puking. Does anyone else seem to get sick after taking prenatal vitamins? I have tried taking them at different times of the day, with food, etc. and nothing seems to work. I've starting taking flin.stone vitamins to at least get some folic acid. I will be calling my doctor tomorrow morning to see about getting a different prescription - maybe that will help.

I made my appointment for the gender ultrasound. It is scheduled for May 12. My mom is going to fly up for it since B will still be deployed. I don't know how I am going to hold out until then without having an ultrasound. I am so used to seeing our little one now. I hope that between now and then my doctor will be able to find the heartbeat using the doppler - tilted uterus and all!

Tuesday, March 18, 2008


I felt like such a wimp today! For the past two years I have taken a fitness class at work twice a week during lunch. It is a strengthening / toning class so we don’t get too sweaty (although we do have showers, just in case). Since the 4 – 6 week mark my work schedule was just too hectic to make it to class, and then from 7 weeks until now I was either puking, on the verge of puking, or in a meeting during class time … until today. Holy crap did that class kick my butt!

The best part was telling my instructor that I am pregnant. I am 12 weeks now, so I felt comfortable with her telling the class – only 8-10 people and since she has to give me specific instructions at times it made sense. Then I realized telling people is like crack to me!

Only a few people around work knew, but after today I can add a few more to the list. I just love their reactions (thankfully they have all been wonderful). Plus I love the feeling it gives me. Each time I say it, my eyes fill up with tears and I get so darn happy. :)

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Tilted Uterus

Apparently I have a tilted uterus. For the most part this doesn't mean anything - unless you are trying to hear the heartbeat on a doppler. I had my first regular OB appointment on Thursday. Everything was going great until she tried finding the heartbeat. My doctor was great - she kept repeating that this early it is sometimes hard to hear on a doppler and she thought she had the "finicky" doppler, etc. After what seemed like forever she decided that while everything was most likely okay, I should probably have an ultrasound for my peace of mind. Bless her!

We had our fourth ultrasound and as always it was amazing. I still can't believe the detail so early - and all of the movement. It was also great because this was the last doctor's appointment B will be able to make before he comes back in July. I am so glad he was able to meet the OB and get a good feeling about their practice.

B is now gone. I dropped him off this morning. He will be in NC for 2 weeks before deploying. Since I will get to see him right before he leaves (hopefully!) I am not freaking out yet - although I am sure that is coming. For now I am just trying to stay busy, which today meant cleaning the closets. :)

Monday, March 3, 2008

More pictures!

After re-reading my post from Monday it is not surprising that I ended up having a meltdown on Monday night. It was not pretty – this meltdown of mine. It was full of snotty sobbing and me gasping for air in between my sobs. Poor B – he took it like a man. He had absolutely no idea what to do – but he did just what I needed him to do and just held me. I felt much better afterwards, not sure I can say the same about B though!

The thing that pushed me over the edge is B will be leaving for deployment earlier than expected. We were hoping that he would be here through the first week of April. I was excited that he would be here for at least part of the much-hyped second trimester good feelings. I will be 13 weeks on 3/22. He leaves on 3/16. Luckily he will still be in the States until the beginning of April (we hope!) just in North Carolina rather than Kentucky. The plan now is for me to visit him the last weekend in March. I am keeping my fingers crossed that he stays state-side long enough for me to visit.

He should be back early-mid July, which means that he will leave when it looks like I have a beer gut and will get back when I am huge! I am going to have to send him a lot of pictures along the way so he doesn’t have a heart attack when he sees me for the first time.

And now for the pictures (10 weeks):

Yay for another great ultrasound! Although I can’t wait until I can stop having them via the dildo-cam.

So Angry!

I am not sure if I have complained about the crappy military insurance on this blog. If not, in a nutshell – it sucks! Even though I am 10 weeks pregnant I had to go to my primary military provider in order to get my pregnancy “confirmed” so that I can graduate from the RE and go back to my regular OB (who is not a military doctor, we live far enough from the base to qualify for a civilian doctor). My RE gave me all the required paperwork to make this transition as seamless as possible.

After a simple pee test confirmed that I was indeed pregnant (thank goodness!) all I had to do was wait to see the “Doctor.” I won’t even go into what a piece of shit doctor she is on a regular basis. Luckily all I have to see her for is referrals.

When the “doctor” comes in she is relived that she doesn’t have to do any real work because all I need is a referral. All she needs to do is write down the date of my last period (12/22) and my expected due date (9/27). Then she asks if I would like to go back to the OB I used last time, since this is my second child. I tried to explain to her that I do not have any children when she rudely cut me off and said that I had been pregnant before.

Gasp! Yes, you read that right. This dumbass did not put two and two together even though it is in the fucking chart! Apparently she thought it was normal for her to refer me to an RE (in June) when I was 8 months pregnant with my first child (due date would have been July). I calmly explained that I miscarried - you’ve never seen someone back out of a room so fast. No “I’m sorry” or anything.

Next I had to go to the referral nurse to get the necessary paperwork that allows me to go back to the OB. This is when I realize that the “Doctor” got the only two things she had to do wrong – she had my last period as February 20 and my due date as 9/23. How in the hell is my due date at 7 months?!

The referral nurse said the dates weren’t the only thing the “Doctor” got wrong. She also had me down as having one pregnancy but no living children. I could not believe I had to have the same fucking conversation again – not two minutes later. I again calmly explained that I had a miscarriage with my first pregnancy. You think she would say something nice or at least have the decency to keep her mouth shut. Instead she says, oh so then you really don’t have any living children. WTF?!?!

I grabbed my paperwork and got the hell out of there. I mean seriously, I can’t possibly be the first woman to have a miscarriage at this clinic. I now have a name/number to call and complain. I just can’t believe the lack of sensitivity of these people!

I understand that there are many qualified and caring people who work in the military clinics. I just had the unfortunate experience of dealing with a few of the duds.

Good news is I have another ultrasound this afternoon! I can’t wait to see how much he/she has grown!!