Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Appointment Scheduled

First of all I want to thank everyone for your support. It really does means a lot to me. The appointment is scheduled for Thursday at 10 and will include a Level II ultrasound, doctor consultation and amniocentesis, if I chose this option. I honestly have no idea what to do about the amniocentesis – B wants me to get it so that we can know for sure and we can be prepared (my doctor says the ultrasound will only cut our chances by 50%). He told me he will be fine with whatever I chose after hearing the risks and recommendations of the specialist. This is when deployment really sucks. We are very blessed that we are able to talk and email on a frequent basis – but he can’t be here to listen to all the information and help make decisions.

I am starting to feel overwhelmed. Not with this situation, but just in general. I know I am not even halfway through the pregnancy but I already feel behind. I haven’t even begun to look at daycares or at cribs or carseats or anything else. This is just not like me. I am a financial analyst so organization and spreadsheets are in my blood! For anything else I would already have spreadsheets made of all things baby – complete with pros and cons and con.sumer re.port information. But I have zilch. And B doesn’t get back from deployment until mid-July, when I will be freaking 28 weeks so obviously I can’t wait for him. Oy!

I realize that in the grand scheme of things this is not a big deal at all. But given the appointment on Thursday and the deployment, this is what I am choosing to focus on right now. You think I would choose to focus on something more pleasant – and I really am focusing on those things like how much I love being pregnant and watching my belly grow and how much I am looking forward to my parents visit – but this crap is just nagging the hell out of me. Okay, I think I am down with my rant now. :)


alison said...

Continued prayers that things will work out for the best. I'm just like you - I live for spreadsheets and organization. But one thing at a time is all you can do. I know when I'm feeling overwhelmed with more than I can handle, it helps me to just start writing things down - the stuff I'd like to do but that isn't even remotely doable right now. Sometimes the overwhelming part is that it seems so unconquerable, breaking it into managable chunks seems to help. *hugs*

Jen said...

It is tough to work through all of that, especially when your hubby can't be there to talk with the doctor too. Maybe you can get the L2 first and then decide on the amnio because that may very likely impact what you decide to do. Good luck. You're in my thoughts.

Road Blocks and Roller Coasters said...

I will be praying hard for you and the baby. Please be sure to update after your appointment! HUGS!

Bill said...

I'm really hoping that you'll be able to get some peace of mind with the amnio...I know they're scary, but it will give you some more information. I totally understand feeling overwhelmed...I've had some complete breakdowns in the past few days...again, I don't know how you're doing it. Take care and good thoughts!

Cibele said...

I had to do a level 2 sono as well, I know how scary it is. I am hoping and praying that all goes well as it did with me.

infertility just sucks said...

I'll be thinking about you tomorrow morning for sure.

Don't feel badly about being overwhelmed - just take things one task and decision at a time.

Have you made a list of questions for tomorrow? Even if you think they're irrational or over the top questions, put them on paper so you'll have them if you want them. Plus, it might help you start to feel a bit more like your old self.

**Hugs** I'll be watching for an update tomorrow and thinking good thoughts.

Adriane said...

I really hope the Level 2 goes well. It must be so difficult to have dh unavailable for the visits to help make decisions. That would wear on me, too. I will be thinking about you!

Jennifer said...

I'm praying for you that all turns out just fine with your babe! Good luck today!!!

I'm a total spreadsheet whore, myself, an accountant by education and a consultant by trade.

HUGS for you today! Let us know how it all goes!!!

Courtney said...

I am late to catch up to this, but my thoughts are with you right now as you take all of this in. I recently had some friends who had abnormal screen results and then did the amnio, and now they are in the clear. My hopes are that despite having to go through the stress of this, you will get the outcome you are looking for.