Friday, June 27, 2008

I'm back - again

I feel like I am always apologizing for my lack of blogging. Things have been going very well with the pregnancy. Our baby girl is continuing to grow – and so is her momma! Every time I start writing a post it seems to end up going in the same direction – me whining about missing my husband or worrying that something is going to happen to him while he is deployed.

I know this is ridiculous, but I didn’t want to actually put those words out there out of fear that it would jinx us and something would actually happen to him. I am going to chalk that one up to pregnancy hormones, even though if I am honest with myself I would probably do the same thing if I wasn’t pregnant. Towards the end of his deployments I always get so worried. Now my worries are doubled.

In my rational moments – and I promise I do have them – I know everything will be okay, that he will be home soon safe and sound. It is just hard to imagine him back at home. So much has changed in the few months he has been gone. I worry about him being overwhelmed when he comes home. I also worry, as any woman probably would, about what he is going to think when he sees me. It’s not that I think I look bad or that my husband is shallow. It’s just that I have changed so much and I just wonder how it is all going to work. I have been sending him pictures of my belly along the way so he won’t be too shocked. But he has said even seeing the pictures it is hard to imagine what it will actually be like to see me in person.

He should be home in the next few weeks. I am nervous and also very, very excited to see him. I can’t wait for him to feel our baby kicking!

I also feel like I am always saying this – but I am keeping up with everyone’s blogs. I may be a few days beyond at time as I’ve been swamped at work, but I am still keeping up.

9 comments:

Jen said...

I bet that he'll be very excited to see you, pregnant belly and all. It's amazing how husbands react to their pregnant wives, and feeling the kicking seems to be one of the best parts of all.

alison said...

Whine away, as much as you want to. I would feel exactly the same, pregnancy or no. You're a trooper to get through most of this on your own. Your hubby will be so excited to see you and baby girl! Prayers for his safe return, and your (and baby girl's!) continued health.

Road Blocks and Roller Coasters said...

I am very glad to hear that things are continuing to go well and that your hubby will be home soon! Thinking of all of you! :)

K @ ourboxofrain said...

I'd be scared too, pregnant or not. I think it's natural. And I'm sure he'll be thrilled to see you -- even if the pregnant belly is surprising in person, I'm sure he'll be overjoyed to see it. And as Jen noted, he's going to love the feeling of the kicking. Many prayers for his safe and speedy return.

Adriane said...

Good to hear an update from you. I think it's great you are taking belly pics for your husband. That will help minimize any shock. :-) I can only imagine how hard it's been for you to have your husband gone. You're not whining at all. I'd be a mess if I were you!

Jennifer said...

Welcome back...it's good to see you around again.

You're absolutely entitled to be worried and excited...I don't know how I'd handle not having John around right now. You're a very strong woman - always remember that!!!

Rebecca said...

I know I say the same thing when I comment, the I don't know how you're doing it...whine as much as you want and we'll just listen/read!

Katie said...

Always good to see a post from you and I am so glad that your husband iwll be home soon!

I often feel as if I am repeating myself on my blog and wonder if I am boring people, so I understand where you are coming from!

Kelsey said...

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